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The Mumbai that I saw

Although it’s been quite a few days since my trip to Mumbai, I haven’t really had the chance to know the real city. A city is a living, breathing, emotional being in itself, and it would be too naïve to claim to know a city as alive as Mumbai from within the confines of an air-conditioned car, or a comfortable home, housed within a multistoried residential complex. To know a city, one has to walk the very streets that make it what it is. So, I did.

From my experiences on my solo trips across the city, Mumbai is a vast web of not just people but thoughts, and ideas, and dreams, pouring in from all sides. Every man, woman and child in Mumbai knows the importance of time, and the city keeps up with that time in perfect rhythm – like a graceful dancer, whose every move is in perfect rhythm with all things around her. The rhythm, although beautiful and (almost) perfect, is ruthless at the same time. The city cannot wait, even for those who trip and fall during that daily dance. They must have what it takes to pick themselves up, brush the dust off their clothes, and start off that dance exactly where they left off.

The local train network of Mumbai is called the lifeline of the city and for good reason too. The vast network connects almost every part of Mumbai, running everywhere the flow of humans needs to trickle to; but this lifeline running right through Mumbai is a brutal place as well, and it doesn’t forgive mistakes easily – or wimps, for that matter.

Getting on a crowded train at peak hours of the morning or evening is not for the faint hearted. Only a perfect combination of a cool mind, a strong heart, and an agile body with strong hands can get you in. I didn’t know I possessed any of these until I managed to push my way into one of those overflowing trains. Still, I think I was lucky enough to have clambered on. Mumbaikar readers might be able to appreciate what I mean by overflowing, but for the others I’ll try to paint a picture. Imagine a bus stop (Delhi folks, imagine Dhaula Kuan), jam packed to the brim. An even more overcrowded bus comes along, and all (yes, ALL) the people on that overcrowded bus stop run along trying to catch that bus as if there’s no tomorrow. Now that you have that picture in your mind, multiply the crowd by 9 or 12 (depending on the number coaches you want on that imaginary train of yours) and you’ll probably come near to the typical scene on a typical day at a typical Railway Station of Mumbai. Really puts the abuses, derisive comments, and (sometimes) the jibes flying around in perspective.

A local train at night, however, is a completely different story altogether. With trains running from as early as four in the morning to as late as 12:15 in the night, it is one of the most dependable modes of transport in Mumbai. At night, with trains running almost empty, the rush-hour madness is replaced by a strange, tranquil environment. A midnight ride standing at the gate of the compartment, while well lit, albeit empty stations rush past the train; the rhythmic rumble of the train rolling on the tracks; the cold air rushing past, fast (dried up my clothes from an earlier experience that night, but that’s a different story); the tangy air floating in from the Thane creek that we crossed in the night; it all presented an entirely different viewpoint from what I experienced local trains to be earlier.

Although I travelled on the locals a few more times, my focus shifted from inside the train to the world outside. We passed slums, high rise buildings, crowds of people, and lazy buffaloes cooling off in marshy waters. We could see wave after wave of humans crossing the roads, even during the late hours of the night. The city never sleeps, and the Mumbai local train network, being the lifeline, can’t afford to sleep either.

Mumbai’s nightlife has always been talked about a lot, but that too is something you have to experience firsthand to understand what it’s all about. It’s somewhat different from the usual connotations that accompany the word Nightlife. It’s not all about late night parties and clubbing all night long. It’s a little more literal than what it means at other cities – the time of the night when the city comes alive, again. It is this nightlife which makes marketplaces at 12:30 in the night seem like 8:00 in the evening – with people still looking for a nice place to hang out, and some hawkers still out on the streets selling their wares.

A friend told me how the night had fooled him too, just as it had fooled us. Juhu beach with friends, chatting after a long hard day at work, seemed like a perfect idea to unwind their minds. So, they hit the beach around 8ish in the evening, with plans of getting out by 10:00, have dinner and go back home. The next day was, after all, a working day for them. By the time they wrapped up their relaxing chats and finalized their plans for dinner (they decided the time as 10:00), it was 12:15 in the night. Even at that hour, people were pouring in at the beach, keen faces hoping to have a little bit of fun. Such is the spirit of this tireless city.

Walking through the town area (as it is fondly called by many), we came across numerous old buildings. All constructed during the British Raj, every step that echoed through these stone walkways had a unique, Victorian touch to it. Although the place reminded me a lot of Connaught Place of Delhi, these walkways seemed to have a lot more history, a past that had been left almost untouched by the present, something still as pure as it was the first day it came into existence.

It was in one of these very walkways that we found a cozy little shop selling musical instruments. Polished guitars with twinkling strings winked at us, and it was impossible not to go in and spend a few moments with those precious instruments. So, in we walked, and spent a good hour or so there. During that hour, I felt as if I was back home, with my wonderful wooden buddies and their music, content and happy with life, even if for a brief moment of time.

The ocean was just a little while away from the town area, and although I had seen it a few times since I arrived, the first time I came really close to it was the same night I got lost at Bandra. Getting bored alone at the Bandra station was definitely not for me, and so when my friend called and said he would be late by about an hour, I walked out of the station and on the road again. Evening was upon the city, and all around me the lights were coming up. The shops, the streetlamps, even the dancing lights from the trains passing by every few minutes; they all lit up Mumbai to a brilliant, multicolored hue. Wandering through these markets, the sounds and the smells and the sights chasing me, I went up and down Hill Road, roamed around S. V. Road, and I think also touched Linking Road (although I’m not too sure of that), all without even the faintest idea where I was. Eventually, I reached Bandstand, and that’s when I heard the gurgle of the waves on the rocks. It was too dark to see anything clearly, and since I had been lugging my bags around for quite some time, I sat down at the Barista nearby.

The ocean air at Bandstand had a subtle salty tinge to it – the perfect amount that makes up a wonderful blend. The cool breeze from the sea can surely pep-up anyone, and although I knew the baggage I would have to carry was heavy, and soon all the things that were troubling me would return, during the time that I saw there, sipping my coffee and waiting, the troubles and the heavy baggage were all pushed away gently. All that remained then was the wonderful, fresh feeling that only the ocean can give to you.

My next (and last) date with the ocean happened the afternoon I left Mumbai. Since I had a few hours to spare before I left for the airport, my friend took me to Juhu beach. The fine sand of the beach, the small waves during low tide, the sunlight bouncing on the ripples of the water, and the crowd – each one of these seemed to have a life of its own. Walking barefoot along the wet sand, I couldn’t help but look back at the footsteps, at the fragility of those footsteps. One flowing wave from the depths of the mighty ocean was all it took to wash them away, leaving the sand just as it was a few minutes back. It surely was a humbling thought, the realization of the awe inspiring power that the ocean holds within itself, and how tiny and insignificant we are in front of the sea.

The sun was slowly sinking down towards the sea, spreading a red light in the sky as it went. We sat down on the beach, blissfully ignorant of the time, as we watched the waves chasing each other on the beach, crashing one after the other. We watched the ocean catching fire, as the red fireball slowly sank deeper and deeper into the water, until finally the ocean swallowed up the sun, and all that was left was the red hue in the sky. The sun had set, and it was time for me to come back home.

Our flight back took off some 15 minutes before schedule, so I had to say goodbye to this wonderful city those many minutes earlier; and although I was coming back home, to the city I love the most, it was still a bittersweet moment. I don’t know when I’ll be going back, but I know that one day, I’d like to return and witness once again, the daily dance of this graceful place; Mumbai – the city that dances on, always.

A few hours at the Qutub Complex

A few days ago, I went to visit one of Delhi’s most famous landmarks – the Qutub complex, which contains the Qutub Minar, amongst other monuments.
Located at Mehrauli, this place is famous amongst locals and tourists, from India and beyond. So, I went there too, armed with my camera, a few days back, to get a first hand feel of the place.
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The Rose

It was a usual, bright, happy day at Barcelona, Spain. The date was October 18th, and it was a day after Hari’s birthday. He wasn’t there at the corner café, but his two best friends were already there waiting hungrily for their breakfast to be served. After searching for a long time, Tarun, Dev and Hari had finally found this small, quiet café which served the perfect breakfast for the three friends – Idli, Sāmbhar, Vada, coffee, and lots of it!

They sat at the usual outdoor table, discussing last night. Dev had missed a few moments of the party, since he had passed out. Tarun, on the other hand, hadn’t slept all night. First, it was Hari who had kept telling him a story that was quite interesting, and then finally when Hari went to sleep himself, it was the German girl next door who kept him up. It was her Tarun and Dev were discussing, when the Waitress named Monique approached their table.

“Good morning, boys. Beautiful day, isn’t it? What can I get you today, the usual?” asked Monique, with her light rolling French accent. The boys adored that accent, and it always made their day to have a pretty French waitress serving them early in the morning.

“Uh, yeah. The usual,” said Tarun, “but get only two plates of Idli, and one plate of Vada. Hari’s not going to be here today, not right now at least.”

“And just two coffees, same reason,” smirked Dev.

“So, it’ll be two Idli-Sāmbhar, one Vada-Sāmbhar, and two double espressos,” Monique repeated their order, “Is that right?”

“Yeah, that’s it. Thanks, Monique,” said Dev, as Monique walked away from the table, her high heels clicking rhythmically with every step.

“So, what did Hari talk to you about for so long last night?” asked Dev.

Forgetting the story about the German girl-next-door, Tarun frowned hard, trying to remember the other tale. “It was something about a rose,” said he, “something about what happened to the rose. Not a great story. Nothing against Hari, though, but you can’t always come up with great stories. Plus, he was really drunk too, last night.”

“Tell me what he said, already. Drunken stories from Hari, that’s bound to be fun!” quipped Dev.

“Alright, I’ll tell you the story,” began Tarun. “He said that a long time ago, when we were all little boys, and Hari was staying in Spain, he heard a very interesting story from a vase…”

“A vase? He heard a story from a vase?” asked Dev, unbelievingly.

“Look, that’s what Hari said last night, ok? You want to hear the story or not?”

“Oh, absolutely! I can’t wait to hear the rest of this. Story from a vase – that ought to be good!”

“Right, so Hari heard this story from a vase,” continued Tarun, “who had fallen in love with this beautiful rose. The vase told Hari that she was beautiful, and that the vase would just go on and on about how beautiful that rose was.”

“So, how beautiful was it?” asked Dev.

“The rose?” asked Tarun. “From what Hari described last night,” Tarun answered, “it was deep red, and still a bud when the vase first met her. It was Hari’s father who had brought her to the flower shop, and kept her in that vase. They talked often, right from the start, the vase and the rose, and soon became good friends. The rose, at that time, did not know just how beautiful she was, and the vase, being somewhat shy, couldn’t tell her that upfront. Even though he tried, many times, to tell her just how beautiful he thought she was, he couldn’t.

“With every passing day, the beauty of the rose grew. The bud unfurled, slowly, to reveal the real beauty of the petals. A rich, dark red, soft velvety petals, so thick that when they fell, the plop could be heard at all corners of the little flower shop. And the scent, it was divine! With every passing day, the scent of that one rose brought in so many people into that little shop, and the vase was so happy and proud. The rose was indeed beautiful, in all respects, and now finally, the world could see that too. He saw that the rose was happy, and in her happiness, he found his own. Before he knew it, he was in love with that rose.

“Still, the rose didn’t believe that she really was that beautiful. Every time they touched upon the topic of her beauty, she would constantly say that she wasn’t that pretty. The vase, too shy to press on the topic, would let it go, and they would start talking about other things.

“As the days went by, the beauty of the rose increased, and so did her popularity. Soon, the flowers in the little shop all knew who she was, and she was having a merry time with everyone. The rose, in the wake of her ever growing popularity, soon forgot how close she used to be with the vase. She had new friends now, and although the vase saw her every day, things changed. Her priorities had changed, but the silly vase didn’t want to understand that.”

Monique came up to the table, with a tray laden with their breakfasts; two plates of Idli, and one plate of Vada, accompanied by a delicious bowl of Sāmbhar. Tarun stopped for breakfast, but Dev somehow, wasn’t interested in that anymore. “Go on with the story, would you?” Dev urged.

Tarun smiled, seeing that Dev had become so interested into the whole story. So, he put down his spoon, and picked up his cup of coffee, and he continued with the story. “So, the rose had gotten popular,” he said, “and there was this growing distance between the vase and the rose. But the rose did not seem aware of that distance. Maybe she was, and she just pretended that it didn’t exist. Still, the distance kept growing, and yet the vase found that he silently went on loving her.

“Many people had started visiting the little flower shop now, after hearing all about the beauty of the rose. The vase was so proud of the rose, and he tried, in little ways, to make her look even more beautiful. The demand for the rose grew more and more, till one day, Hari’s father decided to sell that rose. The highest bidder got the prize, but the vase wasn’t aware of any of this. So, one morning, he woke up, to find that his best friend, the rose that he loved so much, had gone.”

“She didn’t say goodbye?” asked Dev.

“She didn’t think there was a need to say anything. The vase was left in the store, alone, and as he told Hari this tale, the vase seemed reminiscent of all the good times they had had. Hari said that he could feel the vase’s nostalgia, and although he knew his efforts at making her beautiful had gone unnoticed, and even taken her away from him, the vase was happy knowing that she, too was happy.”

Dev, at this point of time, was hanging on to every word that came out of Tarun’s mouth. Like a little child, waiting to know the ‘then what?’ of a fascinating story. Tarun, however, shut up, so Dev ultimately had to ask him, “Then what?”

In mid bite, Tarun waved to Dev to wait a moment, swallowed, and said, “I’m not sure. That’s the point where Hari also passed out. I couldn’t sleep though, I stayed up a long time after that, thinking about what he said.”

“Huh. So that was the end of the story? What happened to the vase?”

“From what Hari told me, I think the vase was alone, at least for a while after that. Beyond that, obviously, I don’t know.”

Breakfast was over, and the two of them glanced at their watches. It was time for them to leave for work, so they paid the bill and got up to leave. Walking to the bus stop, Dev stopped Tarun, and asked “Do you think there was a point to that story? I mean, why did Hari tell you that story, is there a reason for that?”

“Well,” said Tarun, “I’m not sure if even Hari knows the answer to that or not.”

Human

What audacity!

Letting the secrets out, in such a place

The center of space

Or so it seems, to the untamed mind

Is there meaning to it?

Is it to be defined, even if the world doesn’t think so?

Can it be for a reason?

Oh, does any but that mind know

For it is that mind, which conjures

The salt

The water

And sometimes, the emotions

Who are we to judge?

Frail creatures, we are

Forever shying away from it

One of the very things that makes us who we are

Human, for better or for worse

Infinitely Human

Wind…

The sky waited
As did he
The clouds rolled
White, over the blue
The dust lay still on the dusty road
As he waited
But that wind,
She ne'er came

Gentle footsteps
Into the hot afternoon
Dreaming of the sensual touch
The cool breeze against his sweaty arms
Oh, how he missed her
But that wind,
She ne'er came

The evening sky
Set on fire by the setting sun
The world, a visual sigh
A deep breath, of hope
He willed the leaves to move
He willed the dust to rise
To announce her coming
But that wind,
She ne'er came

The stillness crept up
Veiled within the dark night
Crickets and toads and little invisible frogs
They croaked
Wishful thinking hoped
That they were talking to him
"She's coming, wait on,"
But that wind,
She ne'er came

A Metaphorical Story of a Dog

The courtroom was in session, and the defendant was awaiting justice. The crime had been deemed heinous, to say the least. The judgment of the jury, or of the judge, was left in no doubt. Dog, the defendant had bitten his master. Dog’s master was dead, and now the world wanted justice.

The jury pronounced Dog guilty on a count of first degree murder, and he was sentenced to be hanged till death.

Dog didn’t say anything as the sentence was passed. He had said enough in the courtroom, all of which seemed to have fallen on to deaf ears. Dog’s lawyer had tried to show evidence as to how the species in it, although domesticated, were dominated highly by instincts. Dog’s lawyer had brought Wolf and Coyote, cousins of Dog, to testify regarding the important role instincts played in the family. The world heard none of it.

Alone, in the chambers, Dog’s lawyer was trying to calm Dog down. He knew they had a chance, they could appeal to the high court, and they had to. Lawyer didn’t want Dog to give up, not when he knew there was a chance.

“Look, Dog. I know things haven’t turned out the way we wanted, but we can’t just give up now. We mustn’t,” said Lawyer.

“I know what you mean by that, Lawyer, but I don’t know if I have it in me for long, to just go on like this. My life was supposed to be filled with running around on beaches, or chasing cars, or catching the occasional Frisbee too. If I was lucky, I’d get to do all these things on the same day,” said Dog. He turned his deep, sad, brown eyes on Lawyer, and wistfully continued, “Do you know how happy that would make me?”

“I know that, Dog. Those are the very things that are imbibed in your instincts, just like all those things you did that got you here in the first place. Listen, why don’t you and I forget about this nasty business for a while, have a smoke and talk about something else, eh? What do you say to a smoke?” asked Lawyer.

“I don’t smoke, Lawyer,” said Dog, waving a dismissive paw at Lawyer, “but I wouldn’t mind talking about something else.”

*

A few days passed, but there was no progress of the case. Then, a few weeks passed. Dog was beginning to get a bit restless, and when Lawyer finally came to meet him again, the guards told Lawyer that Dog didn’t do much these days; he would just sit on his haunches and stare outside the window. Sometimes, at night, Dog used to howl as well.

“Hi, Dog. How’ve you been?” asked Lawyer gently. Dog looked inside from the window, and tried to smile with his eyes. He couldn’t really do it, but it was an attempt nonetheless.

“There’s been a lot of procedural stuff that’s been keeping me away from here. I’m sorry I couldn’t come over sooner. Still, we got the stay order on your sentence, and probably…”

“You know what I was thinking,” interrupted Dog, and Lawyer stopped talking, “that I would write. I would start writing, and everything I write will be for the people. I will tell them, in my own words, my side of the story. Do you think they would read it?”

Lawyer smiled, and said, “That’s a good idea. I think you should start writing about that, while I keep working on the procedural stuff. Don’t worry about a thing; we’ll together make sure that your words reach everyone else.”

And Lawyer and Dog sat and stared out of the window in silence, for the rest of the quarter of an hour that he was there with Dog. The awkward silence between them was gone, but neither of them noticed it.

In the evening, Dog received a packet from Lawyer. It had a writing pad and a pencil.

*

Excerpts from the writings of Dog:

I was very small when Master rescued me. I don’t remember much of those days, but Master had been a wonderful friend to me, right from the start.

One of the first memories between me and Master had been that of running on the beach. Even then, I had not known why I loved running so much. I would chase rats, crabs, and even smaller insects, without knowing anything about why I did it.

Master told me there was a word for that feeling – Instinct. He told me that  I came from a long line of animals who have always responded to instinct the way I do. He also told me that it was instinct that made me howl some nights, for no reason.

Master used to keep telling me that I was his best friend. He used to always be with me, even during the tough times… when I would have trouble controlling my instincts. With him, I was always happy, in a very goofy kinda way.

Master was the one who always was there during dinner time. He was always the one who would make sure that I got just the right amount… not too little, nor too much. He knew that if he had left it to me, I’d have devoured the whole box of food in just one go.

It wasn’t really my fault, what happened with Master. I don’t know why I did it too. Call it instinct, or whatever you want to call it. I didn’t mean it to happen either, and every day I feel sorry for the things that I’ve done.

I had known that there was something wrong with Master for the last few days, we as a species can sense it. Something was wrong, might be something at work, or something with his girlfriend. I think it might have been more of the second reason, as I knew she wasn’t really fond of me. Don’t ask me why, though. I’d heard a lot of fights between the two of them about me, although I don’t think they knew I could hear them…

One night, I noticed that she hadn’t come over for dinner. Master seemed to be in a bad mood that night, and when I asked him what happened, he told me that he had had a bad day at work. I somehow sensed that he was lying to me, but I didn’t say anything. I knew he wouldn’t keep lying to me for long. We had dinner in silence, and for the first time, his heart didn’t seem to be in as he fed me.

After dinner is when the bottle of Rum came out. I don’t like it when Master drinks, plus the smell of alcohol makes my head all heavy. I walked out of the room, and decided I’d go out for some fresh air. I remembered that it was a full moon night, and I was feeling very happy as I walked outside into the fresh air.

The meeting with the moon that night was wonderful. All the worries about Master and his girlfriend, the troubles of his office… all of that was just gently wiped away from my head. In that cool moonlight, I could feel that goofy happiness returning, and so just to play along for a while, I got up, stretched, and chased my tail for a bit. I still don’t know why we do it, except that it’s great fun to do that.

Soon after though, I heard a mighty crash from inside the house. I stopped quickly, and I could feel that there was something wrong with Master. He was saying something, but I knew for a fact that there wasn’t anyone in the house. I sprinted around, as quickly as I could. Master needs me, a voice in my head kept saying to me.

I walked to the door, but something stopped me from going in directly. There was another emotion that was beginning to well up inside me – fear. It seemed absurd, for I knew it was just Master in there. My best friend, Master. I wanted to scream out to my brain that it’s ok, that there’s nothing in there to be afraid of, but the feeling was too strong to overcome.

Cautiously, I walked into the room where Master was. I could see that he was drunk, but what I had failed to see was the revolver in his hand. I felt scared, scared somehow of the same man to whom I had always turned to, to be reassured that everything in the world was good and pure. I walked slowly towards him, but stopped when I felt that strong emotion again. This time, I could hear Master sobbing as well.

It was a different sort of sobbing, something which sounded as though he was about to do something rash, something that would make him very sad. I put my head gently on his lap, while my head screamed just one thing – get out. I didn’t dare say a word, but now I think I should have said something to him that time.

It happened in a flash. He was pointing the revolver at my head, point blank distance. I don’t even know how it happened, all that I remembered is the precision snap that my jaws made. Before Master had a chance to twitch his finger on the trigger, I had ripped out his throat. He was dead, before I could even realize what I was doing.

I didn’t know what to do. I think it was a good 5 minutes before I finally got the courage back to make the call for the ambulance. All I could tell them was the address, and that someone was hurt real bad…

Dog couldn’t go on after this. He put down the pen and paper for the night, knowing that he would have to continue with his side of the tale tomorrow. He got into the bed, wiped his tears, and tried to sleep for the night.

*

Dog was waiting for Lawyer, early next morning. He wanted Lawyer to read the little bit that he had written last night, and see if that would be of any use. Breakfast was served, Dog finished the last morsels of the sorry prison food, and yet there was no sign of Lawyer.

He waited all day, but Lawyer never came. Another day went by, and yet there was no sign of Lawyer. He was supposed to come, Dog knew that. On the third day, he finally asked the guards why Lawyer wasn’t coming.

“Didn’t you know? Lawyer died day before yesterday. Hit and run case. The kid got away though.”

“Why didn’t anyone tell me about that? How could the kid get away with killing a man? Lawyer was a friend of mine!” said Dog.

“Well, I dunno. The kid was the judge’s son, that gave him an edge I guess. Even with the DUI and all, the judge sure knew how to pull the strings and get his son free,” said the guard, obviously impressed by the judge’s reach.

“But what about my case? What about my story? What about me?” Dog asked in desperation.

“How on earth am I supposed to know? There wasn’t much doubt about it right from the start, Dog. You’re going to the gallows. You ripped your old man’s throat!”

Dog fell silent on hearing that. He lowered his tail, tucked it between his legs, and went quietly away, back to his window.

*

Dog’s date of execution was set a day later. It would happen in a week, the Judicial System didn’t want to waste much time. With the last week to live, Dog went unusually quiet. Of course, by this time, he was so much of a nobody that no one noticed his silence, or his withdrawal.

The day came, and the weather was the saddest that Dog had ever seen. Still, he wasn’t scared anymore. He walked to the gallows without aid, shackled from his muzzle to his tail. The stairs leading up to the noose wasn’t scary, the little wooden trapdoor wasn’t scary, the swinging noose above his head wasn’t scary.

The executioners moved to place the noose over Dog’s head. He heard a voice behind him, but he couldn’t recognize who it was.

“What about the hood? Isn’t that necessary?”

Another voice replied, “Come on, I want to get this over as quickly as possible. There are much more important things that I have to attend to.”

“What about his last words? Do we need to ask Dog for that?”

“Come on, hurry it up already! He’s a murdering dog, what last words would he have?”

And with that, all voices fell silent in the room. The only sounds was the steady ticking of the clock overhead,and the occasional rustle of the rope against Dog’s neck. Dog had lost all sensation, almost all along his body. He was numb, and strangely glad of that situation.

There were no intimations. Nobody asked Dog for any last words. The noose was fitted around his head, and Dog closed his eyes. The room went silent, even the clock seemed to stop ticking. At that moment, for a reason he couldn’t comprehend, Dog wanted two people to be there with him more than anyone else. Master, and Lawyer.

Nobody bothered to feel anything that Dog was feeling. Nobody stopped to think why at that moment, Dog closed his eyes, when he had been so brave throughout. In that silent room, a sudden rumble was heard. The trapdoor had opened, and Dog fell through.

*

The guard went in to sweep Dog’s cell. He knew Dog would not return, and the few things Dog had stocked while he was staying in that little room had to be removed. There was a new inmate coming in here; a deer charged with mauling a tiger with his horns.

The guard swept the room, and found the single page that Dog had scribbled. He took a glance at it, and saw that it belonged to Dog. He crumpled the sheet into a ball, and lobbed it at the dustbin. The ball landed about a foot too short, the guard cursed, and went on with sweeping the little room.

The Nameless Face

I know there are a million stories out there that start with “Well, there I was, minding my own business,” but this is one story where that line holds true to every word. I didn’t even want to start off like that, but that’s exactly how it happened.

Well, there I was, minding my own business, when this crazy drunk fool swung a huge fist at me. The whisky went flying from my hand, and I went flying down on to the floor. That hurt.

I was helped up by two men in the pub, while the third man was screaming at the burly fellow who had knocked me about. Winston, they kept calling him. Winston on his part looked quite sorry for what he had done, and from what I could gather from the conversation (which was tough, since I could still see stars around my head), I understood that this Winston guy had thought I was someone else.

“Sorry about that man,” Winston said to me once we both had settled down. “I thought you were someone else.”

That confirmed what I had thought. So I told him, “I know.”

We sat down at a table, and that’s when I got a good look at him. He looked Indian, just like me. That was confusing, so I looked around again. We were at a very desi pub, playing Bollywood numbers and such. It wasn’t really the place for a Winston to be hanging around, and he certainly looked nothing like a Winston either. Still, my father had always told me, “You never make fun of someone’s name.” He was a devout Brahmin, and still lived by those rules. No meat, no alcohol, no tobacco.

I took a sip of my beer and a bite from the Tandoorii Chicken in front of me, and keeping my father’s words in my mind, didn’t say anything about Winston’s name.

From where I was sitting, Winston looked something like a brown barrel which had been forced into a T-shirt and faded jeans. He didn’t look that tall, now that I wasn’t lying on the floor anymore, but he was fat. Those weren’t his biceps; they were rolls of fat hanging out of his sleeves. I try not to judge people by their looks, so I quickly looked down at my chicken again. It looked delicious.

“So, Winston. Where are you from again?” I asked him, just to keep the awkward tension out of our way.

“I’m from Kanedda,” said Winston, in a thick Punjabi accent. I guessed he meant he was from Canada, but again didn’t say anything. My father’s words were still ringing in my ears.

The waiter arrived, with the Coke that Winston had ordered. He took one of the pink straws from the glass (even though they had green ones!) and sucked the drink. The black cola moved up and down the straw like the mercury bobbing up and down in the sphygmomanometer. I noticed I was staring, and quickly averted his eyes and down onto my plate. All that was left from the aforementioned chicken were the bones.

I made to grab the glass of beer in front of me, when Winston spoke up again.

“I’m sorry I hit you. I thought you were someone else,” he repeated.

“It’s ok. I’m not hurt that bad.”

“No, really. I shouldn’t have hit you like that. I was just very irritated,” he said, in a very irritated tone of voice.

I should never have asked the question I asked after this. I would never have had to know anything about Winston, had I not asked the next question. I could have shut up, drank my beer, and just walked out of the pub. I could have forgotten the whole incident, but I found myself looking straight into Winston’s eyes, and asking: “What happened?”

“Well, like I’ve said, I’m from Kanedda. I’ve come here to attend my cousin’s marriage. I’m not exactly the kinda guy a girl looks for, so I never really had a girlfriend back at home. I mean, it’s not like I’ve never been with a girl, but I’ve never really had a girlfriend. So, when my cousin told me about the nice girls in India, I thought I’d come down here and see for myself. I mean, we’re not getting younger here – I’m almost 30 and…” he lowered his voice dramatically, “I’ve never seen a girl naked!

“So, I came down to India to, well, amongst other things, get laid. But here too, for some reason, I wasn’t really lucky.” He paused to take a bit of the Tandoorii Roll he had ordered, and took a bite out of it while all his chins wobbled rhythmically. He swallowed, sucked a bit more on his Coke, and continued, “So my cousin, being the good guy that he is, said he would hook me up with a nice Indian girl. I trust him completely, so I was naturally very happy to hear that.

“In the evening, I got a call from a man named Sarath. He told me that his employees could massage some clients, and he gave me an address. I was really excited about the whole thing, so I slipped out of the house as quietly as I could. Catching an auto in this city isn’t really easy, but luckily the driver was also going to the same place. So, he took me in without much haggling or arguments.

“Sarath’s ‘office’, as he called it, was quite a seedy place. There was a funny smell around, but it was pleasing at the same time. Sarath smiled broadly, and his teeth twinkled along with the thick gold chain he was wearing around his neck. ‘Myself Sarath,’ he said as an introduction. He then waved his ring-laden hand around, and a line of young girls came out of the other room. ‘No hurry, Mr Winston Sir. Take time and choose. All of them A One quality, and they suit your special needs as well’ and the smile came out again.

“The girls weren’t that pretty, but I thought I didn’t have much of a choice. Finally, I settled for the one who seemed to be the youngest one of the lot, and went inside the room. ‘Good choice for your special needs, Mr. Winston. She knows his way around,’ said Sarath and closed the door. His comment seemed a little odd, but I didn’t really think much about that.

“I was shaking with excitement, and that’s when the whole thing happened. Sarath’s girl… well, wasn’t really a girl!”

“What do you mean?” I asked Winston, bewildered.

“The girl was a man, dressed like a girl. A ladyboy!”

“Oh, “I said, “You mean a Hijda. Yeah, I got that. So what did you do?” I asked Winston. He looked confused, somehow, as though he expected me to know the answer to that question. I thought that was unfair.

“Well, I ran out of the room, of course. I asked for my money back, but Sarath didn’t give it to me. He threw me out of his office instead.”

“Ohh, I’m sorry about that.”

“Yeah. That’s why I hit you.”

“Wait, what?”

“Yeah. That’s why I hit you. I thought you were Sarath,” he said matter-of-factly. I think I looked offended, which is fine because I was offended.

“You thought I was a gold-chain-wearing ring-bearing eunuch-hiring pimp? And you hit me because of that?”

He shoveled some more of the roll into his large mouth and said, “Yeah. You look exactly the same from behind. You’re not his brother or something, are you?”

I was feeling furious. This fat pretend-canadian named Winston, with his wobbly chins and his leaking fat arms, thought I was a gold-chain-wearing ring-bearing eunuch-hiring pimp! This was absurd!

“This is absurd! Why would I be a pimp? Tell me, Winston, are all Canadians this dumb, or is it just something that happens with people named Winston?”

He grinned and said, “I wouldn’t know, my friend. My real name isn’t Winston.”

The Silent Years…

Beneath the old tattered bus stop
The lonely old man thus sat
Deep lines on his brow, wisps of hair in his ears
A few wisps more, under his hat
The evening was quiet, the silence thick
And in the chilly, lonely wind
Our old man sat there, quiet and alone
For the bus to come, and take him home

The market seemed buzzing with life
In the fast approaching night
But not a sound could he hear
Unless he twiddled a knob in his ear
But the silence, the quiet, had become his friend
And so, he waited, for this evening to end
With bright lights shining, the bus came by
My silent friend, he rose
A swift smile, and a nod... my nameless friend's goodbye

 

Written as a tribute. Specially to the old man who sat waiting with me at the bus stop.

I hope it sounded amateurish.

Waiting for a better day, today

I saw the ocean, today
The water, the salt in the air
As I waded into the murky deeps, in my head
Looking for a foothold beneath the sand
I knew it wasn't the day
My day
Still, it was time
The waters had to be tested, today
Grey clouds above me, fine spray around me
That clung to me
I waded through the deep, one little step at a time
Waiting, for that moment, today
The sand slipping through
Through my toes this time, and yet I trudged on
A faraway call, a whale song
Floating to me, for me, from somewhere
Telling me to wait, stick on
Stick my numb toes, right into the soft sand
And wait, for my day
That song was a promise, of a better day
For it wasn't my day, today.